Open Journal #50

We have taken to being on a video chat with each other while we do things — sometimes we’re at our desks, sometimes emptying a dishwasher — like an office for the work-from-home types. Just an American friend and I, chewing the fat, as I believe you call it. We fell into a conversation about … Continue reading Open Journal #50 →

Open Journal #36

I was talking to a fellow survivor the other day and i mentioned that i was exhausted after therapy, really wiped out, and for most of the next day i felt the effects. It just seemed weird to me, i mean basically i had sat and talked for two hours, it wasn’t like i had … Continue reading Open Journal #36 →

Open Journal #33

This is going to be a slight change of tone, mostly because i am writing this from a place of rage. A couple of weeks ago i posted a journal entry and talked about a terrible week of things happening one after the other. I included this … … The next day, my friend in … Continue reading Open Journal #33 →

Open Journal #27

Someone gave me a link to some interesting stuff for me to read, I was always the kid who read the back of cereal packets, I will read anything. In this case I am finding it thought provoking. It mentioned the phrase ‘self soothe’, never heard it before. Asked wife if she had come across … Continue reading Open Journal #27 →

Open Journal #15

I got banned from chat. Obviously I don’t think I should have been, and I’m arguing my point, but not here. I’m four weeks into nightmares and broken sleep, sitting here at 3am alone, missing the company and the support. I’m left sitting with my own rage again. I started thinking about my inner rage … Continue reading Open Journal #15 →