Open Journal #42

I think some weird things are happening. It almost feels as if some big things have cleared away and I can see other things I have never seen before. I bump into them, I catch myself saying something in conversation, or I am weeding the garden and an idle thought crosses my mind. A recent … Continue reading Open Journal #42 →

Open Journal #35

NB. I did consider not posting this entry because it is very specific to the survivor site it was originally written for. I only include it because my intent was to go public and not hide or edit anything. Learning how to navigate and discuss abuse was as much a part of the story as … Continue reading Open Journal #35 →

Open Journal #33

This is going to be a slight change of tone, mostly because i am writing this from a place of rage. A couple of weeks ago i posted a journal entry and talked about a terrible week of things happening one after the other. I included this … … The next day, my friend in … Continue reading Open Journal #33 →

Open Journal #18

The ban was lifted. I needed those couple of days to think about what happened next. What I felt about it. What it meant. As is often the way because of time zones, the chat rooms can be empty. I will often sit in one on my own and play music. I’ll write something on … Continue reading Open Journal #18 →

Open Journal #16

This is the second night of not being allowed in chat. I’m sure it’s supposed to be a punishment, though I’m still not sure what for. I made a complaint and asked for the decision to be reversed. Nothing yet. And at this rate, there won’t be a decision until the punishment is complete, so … Continue reading Open Journal #16 →

Open Journal #11

I am fascinated by how quickly you can connect with people here. I keep coming back to it and picking at it, trying to understand it. I mean sure we all have one thing in common, but it can’t just be that. Maybe it’s a false feeling, those of you who pop into chat rooms, … Continue reading Open Journal #11 →