In the last week of my father's life, he lingered. Like that party guest who just needs one more drink, he hung around and would not give up the ghost. Or simply become one.
Tag: therapy
Disturbing Calm
I am not fixed as such. I don't claim to be sorted, or that it is all over. I may never be able to utter those kinds of words. I am ok with that.
Touching and the art of feeling
Part of my recovery has included a lot of curiosity. It is in my nature to enquire and ask why and how, and what if we didn’t do that, what if we did this instead?
Some Things Are Better, Blurred
I have never understood therapy as a lifestyle accessory, or why anyone would insist on sticking with a therapist who irritates them. Or the people who think their therapist is an idiot.
Therefore I Have No Before.
A friend pointed me towards Dr Doyle’s instagram full of pithy comments around PTSD and trauma recovery — Oh and a lot of pictures of his cat. This one really hit home.
Open Journal #59
Listen to this on the podcast Trigger Warning! Seriously, I’m not messing about I went to prison. There was a little period of my life where I stole things. I had no idea why. I know now it’s not unusual for survivors to do this—some twisted attempt at being seen. I never explored it too … Continue reading Open Journal #59
Open Journal #56
Listen to this on the podcast The Storage Unit Of My Mind I am sure it has been used a thousand times. It might even be that my therapist has used it many times himself. One day he described my brain as a storage unit. I imagined one of those ones you hire like a … Continue reading Open Journal #56
Open Journal #54
Listen to this on the podcast This Is My Truth, Tell Me Yours Families, can’t live with them, can’t bury them under the patio. One of those things that survivors have to deal with. Given that the majority of survivors have been abused by a family member, it is hardly surprising that we struggle with … Continue reading Open Journal #54
Open Journal #48
Listen to this on the podcast By the time you read this it will be a few weeks from now. There’s a slight built-in delay. It helps me to process things before I publish — consider and tweak, ponder if I think it’s ok to say these things out loud. I have had an interesting … Continue reading Open Journal #48
Open Journal # 44
Listen to this on the podcast I have a strange sense of fragility. As if the newness of this won’t last, and if I’m not careful, I’ll break it. Not even sure what "it" is. There are differences, and I know that things have changed. I clearly don’t feel the same way about anything anymore. … Continue reading Open Journal # 44